Bent Words

Bent Words

March 26, 2020

It’s okay.

I’m used to it.

I do this a lot.

Love despite the irrationality. Hold on despite the pain. Keep you in the forefront despite the distance.

I’m an old pro you know.

It’s why I haven’t missed a thing. And why everything is a wonder. I know you. You’ve never really been so entirely out of reach. The edge of my memory can trace the outline of your fingers without losing interest. Just to move beyond the palm of your hands to find the newness of a scar, the hint of a tattoo and I know I need to take my time. I don’t want to forget. I don’t want to lose it. Whatever’s new, whatever’s next – I want that, too.

It’s like sitting at the picnic table with you on a sunny summer day and you have your hand in my mine and an elbow propped up by your side.

You’re looking around.

I’m looking at you.

Do you still feel me from way back then like I can still feel you? Do you smell the scent of the grass if you just shift your foot a little? Turn your head just slightly and I catch the scent of your breathe on the breeze as you laugh when someone shakes their head at us as they are passing by and there I am; back again. Wondering how this works. How you wash all over me, saturating each sensation. You did. You do.

And we let go and pass each other by
A nervous laugh, a deafening cry
Your name sending shivers up my spine

All those years
And not a week could pass
Without your memory springing back

The world won’t let us forget, will it?

So you can go and I can leave
But this is where we’re meant to be

It’s not just time
I know your heart
And you’re holding mine

I’ve seen you move in slow motion
For my mind can’t keep the pace
I walked through a dozen years
But I return to this same place

So if you choose to say good bye
I know precisely where you’ll go
You’ll be right here still
And that’s all I really need to know

A lifetime could not shake us, could it?

I’ve fought this battle a few times before
I won the distance but not the war
And if you think you can, I love a good fight

Or if you give up and walk away
That alright for now
But I still choose to stay

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SlPhMPnQ58k

Memories - Maroon 5

Here's to the ones that we got
Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we've been through
Toast to the ones here today
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

There's a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain
When I believed in forever, and everything would stay the same
Now my heart feel like December when somebody say your name
'Cause I can't reach out to call you, but I know I will one day, yeah

Everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody hurts someday, ayy ayy
But everything gon' be alright
Go and raise a glass and say, ayy

Here's to the ones that we got
Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we've been through
Toast to the ones here today
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

There's a time that I remember when I never felt so lost
When I felt all of the hatred was too powerful to stop (ooh, yeah)
Now my heart feel like an ember and it's lighting up the dark
I'll carry these torches for ya that you know I'll never drop, yeah

Everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody hurts someday, ayy ayy
But everything gon' be alright
Go and raise a glass and say, ayy

Here's to the ones that we got (oh)
Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we've been through (no, no)
Toast to the ones here today (ayy)
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories (ayy)
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo (ooh, yeah)
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, doh, doh
Memories bring back, memories bring back you

Written at 4:43 p.m.