June 16, 2004
I finally remember what Adam said Saturday night as we stood there in a crowd of dozens. All of a sudden, just now, I recall standing in a world so full of people, yet feeling as though his voice was the only sound to be heard for miles...He said that I must live my own life. Do my own thing, find contentment in questions unanswered and stop allowing so much guilt to grip me. He proclaimed that I cannot just sit and wait. I cannot walk through each day in anticipation without reason.
I've driven round in circles for three hours
It was bound to happen that I'd end up at your
I temporarily forgot there's better days to come
I thought that I would give it just one more chance
Cos' I want, tonight, what I've been waiting for
But I found, tonight, what I'd been warned about
You think that you are complicated, deep mystery to all
Well it's taken me a while to see, you're not so special
All energy no meaning, with a lot of words
So paper thin that one real feeling, could knock you down
And I've seen, tonight, what I'd been warned about
I'm gonna leave, tonight, before I change my mind
So see me when your 40, lost and all alone
being comforted by strangers you'll never need to know
not sad because you lost me
but sad because you thought it was cool to be sad
You think misery will make you stand apart from the crowd
well if you had walked past me today I wouldn't have picked you out
I wouldn't have picked you out
now I've seen, tonight, how I could waste my time
and I'll be on my way, and I won't be back
cos I've seen, tonight, what I've been warned about
your just a boy, not a man, and I'm not coming back --Dido